My questions still seemed unanswered

 All these years,

Before the beginning of a fresh year,

We have been wanting to keep promises,

We have been wanting to keep up our resolutions,

But this year is different,

Where I realised that,

My questions still seemed unanswered. 

This year,

We learnt to create and live with changes,

We learnt to embrace it and grow with it,

We learnt about the parameters of success and failure,

But this year is unique and beautiful in it's own way,

Where I realised that,

My questions still seemed unanswered. 

This year,

We faced and were part of loads of competition,

Personally either feeling under or over achieved,

Yet figuring out where I or most of us fit,

Embracing the differences in each one of us,

Still, I realised that mostly,

My questions seemed unanswered. 

This year,

We struggled- no one understood the pace of their lives,

Were we doing everything because we wanted to?

Or were we doing everything we did because we were told to do it?

Were we even on the right track?

Did we need to upskill? Or were we just fine?

I was still figuring out and so,

My questions seemed unanswered. 

But this year is not like the rest of them,

I realised the importance of change, 

The needs and requirements of success and failure,

The right aspects of competition,

The need for healing, growing, exploring and struggling. 

That it's okay to be at a different pace of life than someone else,

Yet again,

It was okay and probably now it will be okay if,

My questions still seemed unanswered.

-Ushma Shah.